I’m a Christian (- not just in the word) and if I saw this question posted by anyone else, I’ve got to be honest I’d have a million answers, but this isn’t anyone else. It’s me. It’s me, who up at 4:30 in the morning writing this. My life revolves around voluntary work at church, my friends and my illness. For the past 9 days and goodness knows how much longer, I’ve had two of the three taken away from me, due to my flat mate coming down with Swine Flu. She’s been really bad and I’ve been waiting on her every need, but due close contact, my church has placed me in quarantine though I’ve had no symptoms – (incubation period. ) I’ve not been able to see people and few people have bothered phoning except to fine out how my flat mate is? I cope with boredom a lot – due to my illness and use a lot of distraction techniques – I’m creative – write/draw, exercise, email, mess on this site, but I am also able to see people. This is driving me to less Christian forms of distraction like vodka. I know this is wrong, but equally I don’t know what else to stop myself going down the route of blaming God, my church or my friend. I’m bored stupid and just want to knock myself out until it’s over.

I’m a Christian (- not just in the word) and if I saw this question posted by anyone else, I’ve got to be honest I’d have a million answers, but this isn’t anyone else. It’s me. It’s me, who up at 4:30 in the morning writing this. My life revolves around voluntary work at church, my friends and my illness. For the past 9 days and goodness knows how much longer, I’ve had two of the three taken away from me, due to my flat mate coming down with Swine Flu. She’s been really bad and I’ve been waiting on her every need, but due close contact, my church has placed me in quarantine though I’ve had no symptoms – (incubation period. ) I’ve not been able to see people and few people have bothered phoning except to fine out how my flat mate is? I cope with boredom a lot – due to my illness and use a lot of distraction techniques – I’m creative – write/draw, exercise, email, mess on this site, but I am also able to see people. This is driving me to less Christian forms of distraction like vodka. I know this is wrong, but equally I don’t know what else to stop myself going down the route of blaming God, my church or my friend. I’m bored stupid and just want to knock myself out until it’s over.